Day 161 – March 10th – 20 days to go

Yes, it has got to the point of counting down days. At the moment, no matter how hard I work in preparation for class, Trevor’s feedback is consistently negative. Today, I anticipated the negativity by getting nervous, and then played some studies quite well and some really poorly as a result.

There are only three weeks of the course left, and I need to keep trying to learn rather than let the negativity and bullying get to me, but at the moment it’s tricky. I’m looking forward to being free and being my own person again!

Day 160 – March 9th – Practice, practice

After a weekend with some free time, today was the day for pulling out all the stops and doing some serious practice. Not only do we have studies for class tomorrow, but also several pages of Doppler’s Airs Valaques each. Throw in flute history project and our weekly trip to Tesco, and I feel like I’ve been on the go non-stop since 8am!

It’s my turn to do the tune in class tomorrow, and I spent quite a bit of time this morning on Greensleeves making sure that it was both expressive and rhythmic. I keep getting distracted by trying to achieve a homogeneous tone across the whole flute range and through the different keys – I’ll play the tune in G minor and get it sounding really good, and then moving up to G# minor find that it sounds totally different! While I do like the idea of each key having its own character even in equal temperament, I don’t like it when certain notes stick out for all the wrong reasons. For the purposes of class, though, expression and good use of dynamics is key.

Studies are a bit hit and miss this week. I’ve got a handful of the Drouet set sounding quite good, but am still struggling with Altès no. 24 and all the mordants. I feel at once so close to and so far from finishing this book. There are only 26 studies, but both nos. 24 and 25 are tricky. While I can play most of no. 25, the second page is full of trills and I know that I need to play each one evenly with a perfectly timed turn at the end. As for Andersen no. 16, it has had a late surge of improvement, but I’m not totally sure whether that will all carry into class tomorrow. We’ll have to see.

Day 159 – March 8th – Hiking

Beautiful cliffs, though still a little way away from Dover.

Beautiful cliffs, though still a little way away from Dover.

I’ve arrived at the end of today feeling utterly exhausted in a different (and much better) way! My friend Sherlock was down in Kent for the weekend, and I took (another) day off to go hiking with him. We walked from Folkstone to Dover and back, about thirteen miles all up, and it was lovely. The weather couldn’t have been better – springtime sunshine, though with quite a bit of wind. I even had to dig around in my cupboard to find my sunglasses, which haven’t seen any action since September.

Our trail was part of the North Downs Way, a long hiking track spanning miles of Kentish countryside. We walked along the coast, mostly perched up high on the cliffs with a blustery view over the Channel. The paths were well-kept but not always well-signposted, and we often had to backtrack walking through little villages. On the way out, we descended from the cliffs to the ‘Warren’ of paths closer to the sea. It was nice to be out of the wind, but I’d rather been hoping for a warren of caves!

Almost there!

Almost there!

I arrived home with big plans of doing some work on my flute history project tonight, but haven’t got very far and think it might be as well to go to bed and try again in the morning. No class tomorrow, as the others are up in London for a concert and will get back very late. I still have a day’s grace before studies on Tuesday.

Day 158 – March 7th – Fatigue

It’s only 8pm, but once again I’m feeling exhausted and this won’t be a terribly long post. I’ve been spending a lot of time over the last few days weighing up some things about the next step I take on my musical journey, and the process isn’t easy. I feel like it’s taking up a lot of mental energy, energy which I should probably still be spending on the flute. But decisions need to happen some time, and better sooner with less stress than rushed right at the last minute. 

I did get in some good practice today, especially on technical work. As I was tired, I noticed I was playing semiquavers unevenly in some of the scales and technical exercises. I haven’t done this for a while, and think it’s probably to do with being tired. However, I think the difference now is that I notice it quickly, and once I’ve noticed I can revert back to nice even playing quite easily. 

No class until Tuesday this week, which means I have another (very welcome) day to work on studies. 

Day 157 – March 6th – Piccolo and the Pub

Another busy day and so another short post. This morning I was off bright and early to London to attend Peter Verhoyen’s piccolo masterclass at the Royal Academy of Music. It was great to watch, and I really felt like I learned a lot, especially about how to conceptualise piccolo differently to flute. The class finished at 1pm, and so I went for a wander down to Oxford St – more for a change of scenery than for any desire to go shopping! 

My friend Sherlock is down in Kent this weekend, and met me at Wye station. We had a walk in Wye nature reserve (chilly, but the view was worth it) before heading to the Three Bells Pub in Brabourne for dinner. All in all both a lovely and insightful day. There’s lots to practice tomorrow though!